which part of my life i made a big mistake as a daughter or sister or a friend? ive been alive for almost 17 years and now i realised i made someone miss the old times unintentionally, specifically durin those times at 186. and i guess during the years i have not born yet in this world. how about the sacrifices i made for em? dunch talk about how big or small is. some wuld say they treating em very unfair/biased. anyway i did tried my very best to tighten up our bond. but somehow it din work as some din play their part and others get hurt. men are very egoistic dunch ya think so? i aint never gonna blame em for that cos its a natural feeling that obviously they carn hide it. however, they shuld control their emotion too. think about why is this happening. what is the cause? i aint saying that all girls or ladies are so perfect that we know how to control that damn feelings. well for this case, it lies on both men that ive been talking about(for what i kno). i am so hurt that i carn help it but the tears kept rolling down on my cheeks in the train just now. in case ya wanna kno, we din fight or argue to that extent that leads to this essay(i shuld say). its a small thing. the littlest thang that we shuld cherish it, appreciate it. the last thing i culd say, did i born just to hurt others? God, open my heart and show me the right path. let me breathe and please bring happiness to my love ones. friends, cousins, family and to all human beings i know. God Willing. Amin.

and oh anyway,i din sleep peacefully cos ya only see the outside. the first day we spent our night, i really regret and cried and wish we didnt stay there. jika ku bisa putar jamnya.. kan ku ubah kan suasana utk mu wahai hamba tuhan.