Salam earthlings! I hope everyone is doing fine (even tho nobody reads my blog). Hehe
Currently, there is a virus outbreak around the world. Origin from China and now Singapore has ranked number 3. One recent case has been confirmed at Clifford Centre like damn.. that's right in front of my office building so most of us decided to have maggie for lunch because we do not want to get infected (clearly!).
Anyhoos, I am pretty bored at this moment. The office is freezing and I think it's raining right now. I can't see any building figures so let's recite, ”Allahumma shoyyiban nafi’an” [Ya Allah turunkanlah pada kami hujan yang bermanfaat]”. (HR. Bukhari no. 1032).
Dear Allah, I pray that whoever reads this post shall have Your comfort, joy, peace, love and guidance. I may not know their troubles but You do. Please keep protecting us, Amin.
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Salam lovelies.
Happy new year! Trust me, I am thankful for the freedom I have at the moment but at the same time I wish I could spend more time with babygirl instead of playing candy crush. I'm running out of lives thus, the blogging. Really! I can't wait to end work. Currently, the chairman is away in London and some of the colleagues are on leave so yeah.. I should have brought my wireless earpiece and watch some movies. Heh heh.
I wasn't thinking about it until the inner self decided to pay a visit to my rusty blog. I know nobody reads this but God.. please help me. Make the time fly faster when I'm at work. Yes when I'm at work only. But not on bed. *winks*
I questioned myself sometimes why I did this, why I still did that after umpteen times of regrets. It's 2019 my dear self. You can't be forever responsible to the unnecessary issues. I know you just wanna be nice to the world and wait for the golden happiness in hereafter but you gotta love yourself too.
Alhamdulilah I managed to achieve some goals though. Like the house, more quality time with princess, a stable job, scrumptious meals on the dining table. I know Allah can pull any of this anytime He wants so I'm here just to remind myself too, not to take things for granted.
One thing for sure, you, A, if I ever settle your outstanding and you choose not to win my parents' hearts, I pray to God may He bless you with happiness that you seek. After learning that you might not want to live in my house if one day we decided to make it halal (please know that I'm working my ass off alone to get this shelter), I am kinda disheartened. Paying your stuffs which ain't my problem at the first place is already.. a choice. But to continue living like this, ain't gonna let my crown down again boo. I've been trying to stay low about us but I guess, 3 years should be enough to prove us our flaws and strengths. Wise enough to think, if you are willing to take me seriously.
Phew.. thought it gonna be a short post but I guess when you pour too deep, everything comes naturally. I'm left with thirty minutes.
Signing off, yours truly xoxo
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I don't know if you readers noticed but I have started to don tudung ever since Ramdhan. I hope it's gonna be permanent but currently what I can say is I am trying to be a better person, to be better Me. Y'kno when you're trying to be yourself and at the same time you keep reminding yourself, you do it for Allah. Trust me, there were days I wanted to go out without it but I will feel guilty the moment I stepped out from the house. I mean I don't want my dad to responsible for my sins. Yeah even though I'm an adult now but my parents are my parents. I do not wish in hereafter They would question him why did you let your daughter to be so so so.. Why am i writing here so that one day if I happened to lose my faith, I might found this post and regain my will to be better. Once someone told me, to do bad things are easy in this life but to maintain good behavior, fuhh.. Only God knows. So I have prayed to God to protect and bless to my loved ones whenever I'm not around them or prolly when I'm no longer around.
Anyhoos, I know i don't need to explain myself regarding this. At this moment, I will remove my tudung when I'm at work. At the office & during runway shows. So yeah you will still see my postings without it. Pardon me yeah.
As for now, have a blissful Friday all!
Assalamualaikum xx
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6 days ago.. and I keep telling myself probably F accidentally liked the pic. Nothing more..
Anyhoos Ramadhan was good Alhamdulilah. But I know I can do better. I've always wanted to Qiyam but I still remember vividly, one night 3 of us eating happily for buka, watched movie, golek2 at Fit's crib and one by one.. zzz. Ok lah I don't need to mention who was the first one to doze off :P
Syawal.. Oh yah! Selamat Hari Raya to all muslims lovelies! Maaf zahir & batin!
Alhamdulilah I managed to kiss my both parents' hands on the second day. Why second day.. I wished my whole family members to be present. I know it's not easy. But sometimes, we just gotta learn to forgive people. I have been and am still seeking my inner peace ever since F left. I had panic attacks, twice in a week. On the eve of hari raya and last night. The second attack happened when I was sleeping and had a sudden cough. I was gasping for air for few mins. I will never forget this.. A moment when I can't even call out my mom for help. Crying and thinking if this were my last moments on Earth. Ya Allah, Alhamdulilah I am still breathing and had the chance to bersujud again. I am still trying to figure out if I am too stress over something or my body is lack of vitamins. I have been encountering headaches, nausea from time to time. The month F decides not to talk anymore, my menstrual effects getting worse. That month, I was about to collapse from a bike when I was in Bali. I am not too sure if it's due to low blood pressure as I did not managed to eat properly on that day. Last month was bad too. This month, the so called panic attack. Well I am not too sure if it's called panic attack for my sickness because 8 days ago, doctor claimed that my airways & lungs are fine. But a stream of blood found when I cough on that very night.
Oh boy.. my head is spinning while I'm typing this. Anyhoos, maybe I should find some time to relax. But each time I wanna head to the beach, I will feel guilty because my baby princess is not with me. I mean she's at my in laws but ykno.. as a mother I don't think I can enjoy like I do not have any responsibilities. I know I need to love myself too. I will.. one fine day. As for now, my priorities are my parents and baby girl.
A cute lil ring is on my left finger. Thank you..
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Rise & shine lovelies!
Alhamdulilah i guess morning was fine except that I decided to wake up 10 mins later after my alarm clock. I need a day whereby I can just chill prolly by the beach, with my baby boo playing by the pool, sunset, but since it's the fasting month my weekends are packed with plans. Well I am glad that I managed to spend time with my girlfriends & my mom especially but ykno, sometimes you just wanna have your own time. I am so busy with house preparations, the current & the upcoming one, thinking about the reno, the lightings, the furniture. The time & the money spent.. on the necessary & the unnecessary ones.
At this moment, I can only blame myself. I am trying so hard to be a better me. But there are times I feel like I can just slipped away from my so called good habits. A colleague once told me to be bad it's easy but to be good.. damn. So many temptations.
As for the current flame, people told me you will never find the right person if you never let go the wrong one. I stayed because I think about his good deeds to me. Yes he did shits too. I did too. The things that I did, only God knows how I'm feeling about it. I did asked myself am I happy right now? Half of my heart says, be contented. The other half, love yourself.
Oh by the way, I realised that God did actually gave me a few chances to redeem my happiness. I guess I was too blind, too naive to let go things and now AF have proved to me that I should have.. I should have.
6 more hours to knock off from work. Wish me luck!
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I just wanna type it down here so that I can remember..
- A dream home
- A lot of pretty abayas
- A car's license
- A good camera
- Beautiful healthy hair
- Healthy relationships
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Hi earthlings!
Alhamdulilah I am truly blessed today. I received a piece of good news and I can't wait to make it happen. In Shaa Allah.. I know there will be things that won't go to my way but with efforts and perseverance, anything for my precious gems. I think it's time to make my parents happy. I wanna build a home where the family would come together for dinner almost everyday. Including my brother's family. This would be so called my second home. My first will be with Him.. so at the moment, let's collect good deeds so hopefully all of us will be at His paradise in hereafter. In shaa Allah.
Salam manis.
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I had a great time with Baby girl yesterday. I love spending time w her, just the two of us. I managed to breathe for awhile, a stress free moment even tho it was just two hours. I've been wanting to bring her to the beach again y'kno. But I know A wouldn't like the idea of me going alone. Imma good girl okay.. *ehem*
Enviando abrazos
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Two more days to Bali. I've been thinking.. I know it's not appropriate to go with the opposite sex but I hope this would be the last one (I shall not elaborate any further) and I wish the next holiday would be with my halal man to Madrid! *smirks* Really, Madrid? Hahaha! You wish my dear!
Mucho Amor
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Surprise! Surprise! How are you lovely earthlings?
I'm not really back but it suddenly occurred in my mind that I have left my blog dusty for at least four years? Typing while eating an apple.. Seems like leading a good life huh? Alhamdulilah but I'm honestly trying to level up spiritually, mentally, financially, physically (yes I went to the gym guise!) and emotionally.
Physically & emotionally..
Talking about that. Yeap! There's this guy he is so damn fine, papi. His muscles are so yummy. Gosh am I really typing this. Anyhoos, yeah he is somehow the reason why I wanna keep fit. Well it was kinda my fault that I made that one particular statement. Wished I didn't mentioned it but I redha aje lah sis. Moving forward, I will always pray happiness to those whom I have hurt in the past, intentionally or unintentionally. I apologize from the bottom of my heart. I mean seriously Amira, what did you do right? But to err is human. Please forgive me as I really wanna be a better person. Even though I might make the same mistake twice or thrice but there were no ill intention towards anyone. I guess I lost myself too much when the old flame crushed my world. I grew stronger later but was blinded with selfishness, naive and emptiness. Till it hit me hard, when F left me too.
May Allah forgive me & bless everyone else.
Much love,
Jassy
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I'm just lying down on the couch watching CSI for the past two hours. I learnt we have to be contented with what we have right now. Do not judge on someone's mistakes just because you think what you did was perfectly enough. Yes we did everything and anything for that someone but we forgot we have flaws too. We are too confident to think that he or she would not hurt our feelings just because we were mindful about theirs. I just realized we cannot be so hopeful or for me, put high expectations on someone. Because we think we deserved so much care, love and ... honesty. Give too much space it would led to bad opportunities or for bitches, good opportunities to take our limelight from our man. If we take precautions or what man say, control their movements, they say we are Queen control. But hey, to err is human. We need shit happens to create more awareness about our life. There are times you can take it easy, but sometimes you need to be careful with their hearts too. You know they will keep on fighting to keep you. But a lil wish from their small heart, hoping you would do the same thing too, to hold em tight, dearly and forever.
This are just random thoughts. I still love my Barney eh.
Xoxo.
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Salam earthlings. I'm so bored at home now, alone. So I decided to kill time by blogging. Flight later will be at 1500hrs. Means I can stay up late tonight. Hehehe lil princess is at MIL's place. Weekends duties as usual. Y'kno times like this I wish I could book a ticket & see who will try to find me when they realize I'm no longer there. Oh boy, emotions aside Jasmine.
So yeah a throwback post, I did a runway at Village Hotel Bugis. A good opportunity to work with Abg Fai (the boss) & fellow mates again. Very well known bridal in the Malay Bridal Industry. Really love his outfits! Feels like getting married again! Hahaha trust me, some (most actually!) of his dress make me feels likka princess for the day.
Yeap! Our candid moments! Love em to bits! Thank you Farah, Abg Fai & the team for inviting me to be part of this runway show. I really enjoyed duin this. :)
Photo credits to Ishardi Photography & JJamal Photography. So I guess that's it for now. Good night & have a great weekend people! xx
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I know I was a bit off my limits. I tried to be cool as cucumber but I can't. The moment he stepped into the house and said he was from the club, I feel like I'm a fool waiting for him. Trust me, when I reached home about midnight, I told myself he will be back soon. I had to convince myself that it would be alright to be out late once in awhile. The excused he gave for not inviting me to follow is none of his friends bring their partners. I told myself, nothing's gonna happen. Nothing's gonna happen? God please forgive me. I don't wanna be rude but he forgot who's at home. He admits the first thought when his former boss asked to hit the club was work. Second, was tired. Dang I wasn't even in his mind. Honey this ain't the first time. I can close one eye if he wanna take a break. I was so worried about his safety but he didn't even bother to inform me! I have never stop him from going anywhere before this. He claimed his phone died and forgot to inform me. Wait what, forgot? Clearly I have never been his first priority. And oh, I managed to get thru his line till 6 am. So... The phone died? Sigh. Initially I regret saying those words but being so nice to him will never change anything. Like I said this ain't the first time. Shit happens, we make up, happy moments and do it again. Yes he didn't do this regularly but goin out with the same clan and same shit happen again, something is wrong somewhere isn't it? Every time if he wanna go out with this clan, I feel like he's hiding something. But I choose to follow my heart, think positive and trust him (like I always do). Believe me, he's been a good man. Maybe honeymoon period is over I guess? Don't worry I will still try to be a good wife. As long I'm his woman, I will do what I need to do. I know nobody gonna read this post. The blog looks dead to me so yeah. Sorry if I pour out my personal problems here. I had no choice.
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Midnight has passed and I haven't hear my favorite voice since just now morning. The feelings are so indescribable. How is he? Is he fine? I've been praying for his safety over there. Oh God, I'm so worried. Plus rindu. Sigh. Been looking at my phone screen every second just to see if there any miss call. I really hope he's alright & at least, having some fun with his friends. Can't wait for Saturday. Yes I know I shouldn't countdown the days but the distance is killin' me. I miss his voice, his warmth.. I need my Barney back, badly. Please come back safely. Without ya around, life is so lifeless. Only ya & Princess can ease this pain.
Rindu sayang.. :(
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Hi night owls. Uhuh! I'm still wide awake. Supposed to continue my revision for First Aid exam later but I just changed my blog template so it's very tempting to update my blog as well. If hubby knows what I'm doing right now, I'm sure he's gonna kill me!! Hahah :P Well I'm kinda lonely tonight. Baby is at Mom's place & dearest husband is working. So yeah.. that's explain why I got free time to change my blog skin. Heh heh.
Anyhoos, I had a scrumptious dinner with the man after work at Swensen's. Oww yes! Ate my fav food, Pepperoni and Cheese pizza, & he (as always) had the Mega Burger. I wonder how could he finish it all & still ate half of my dessert. No wonder I call him Big Barney.. Hurhur.
Earlier today, I was supposed to go Kallang for a photoshoot with my girls but unfortunately, the assessment for First Aid had to be just now! So I had to withdraw myself from the semi finals.. :( Oh in case ya ain't sure what I'm talking about, it is the Miss Chantique 2013 pageant! I was really sad. Who knows this might the only chance I can get thru into the finals. But again, things happen for a reason. I had to make a decision. I believe set your priority right & God Willing good things will come later. I have to manage my time well. I have promised myself to try not to repeat my old habits again. & I know if there's a will, there's a way. Insyaallah.
Aite time to rest now! Eh not revising? Hehe wish me luck! Good night! :*
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Afternoon darlings. I'm kinda bored so here I am entertaining myself listening to music, upload pictures to FB and update my blog. Amanda is at Mom's place cos Dad is off duty today & hubby is working. Boohoo! But I need to do some house chores later before off to movie date.
Anyhooos, miss doin runway so I decided to post some photos for Grandeur Fai Runway Show. Event was on 12 Feb. Heh heh I know it's kinda late but it's okay lah. At least I update my blog. Lol. Gonna upload alotsa lotsa of pic so bear with me okay. Heheh here we go..
Didicazli performed his songs while some of my fellas walked the runway with him. Hey he was the emcee as well! Great dude!
Before the show starts..
I like this dress the most!
So total of 7 outfits non-stop runway. Alhamdulilah I think I did fine.We rock the stage right fellas?
:D
With the forever beautiful Kak Marina
Oh yes, it's Fatin Amira. A very well-spoken lady. Pretty too! ;)
Candid moments!
Supper after the show
Oh not to forget, the boys! Idris J, Khairuddin, Zaheer, Shah, Fareez & I din managed to snap a pic with Taufiq!! :/
That's about it baby. So I would like to thank Abg Fai & Farah for giving me an opportunity to be part with this team. Really appreciated it & hell yeah I enjoyed working with yall. Thanks to all the MUA especially Kak Zura for dolling me up. Heh heh. I like ya magic touch! ;) All photos credited to Rossi Photography & Ishardi Photography. Ya photos were great too! Thank you! :*
So I'm looking forward for our next gathering. The karokae session was superb! Hope they will update me in advance cos guess what? I'm starting a new job this coming monday. Wish me luck darlings!
Aite gotta go now. Much love!
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